I have had 7 surgeries throughout my life. I don't believe it is that bad but each time I think of them I remember how deep inside I was angery at my mother. Now I've gotten old enough to learn more and more about life and I realized how angery I am about my mother forcing me to have surgeries that I didn't want. And if that's not enough she yells at me for getting less than a B, I believe I'm ugly, I have scary thoughts that aren't right for young ladies but for professinal assassins!! Also my mother makes me uncomfortable and I hate being really close to her. I try looking on the brighter sides of life but they get darker and eviler. And sometimes I like it!