I have very low self esteem, I just got over an eating disorder that i had for 3 years. I'm pushing my boyfriend farther and farther away because of my bad feelings towards everything. I havent been a good girlfriend to him over the 8 months we've been together, and I am extremely jealous of girls that he is friends with, and I dont know why. He is such a good person and would never cheat on me. He is my everything and I dont want to lose him, ever. He said he sees me like a girlfriend, and he wants to try and make things work. He says even if someday we do break up, we will stay friends in hopes of getting back together. He said he sees himself spending a long part of his life with me. How can I stop being jealous of girls that are only his friends, and how can i be a better girlfriend to him? I just want to make him the happiest I can make him.