Hey, everyone I'm Steven.

I'm 18 years old and when I was 16 my best friend pasted away in a car wreck. She was 16 also and I always thought I was a horrible person for not crying as much as everyone else even tho I probably had more feelings for her then anyone.. We really liked each other like more then friends but we both we're to scared to take down the wall and talk to each other about it. She was the most amazing person and loved me for who I was. She would always tell me that she loved me and that I'm her best friend.

Anyways one day she told me "I'll have my car tomorrow!" she was so excited I told her to drive safe and I'll see her tomorrow. On her way to school she lost control of the car and ran into a tree, killing her self and her little sister.

Everyone as my school cried so much and shed so many tears.. I did cry but not as much as I think I should.. I really do miss her and it hurts me every day to know I'm getting older and she's young still at 16.. Our birth days we're 4 days apart so I was always used to us geting older together..

Lately I have been feeling really depressed about this and I don't know how to deal with it..