Like a lot of people, i've had a really tough life, but i've always managed to pull myself through those tough times. I've always been emotional, i'll cry at unecessary things, but i'm guessing a lot of people do that too. I'm not saying that I haven't had a good laugh, I laugh all the time - literally, I could just be walking down the road and i'll burst out laughing, and I love to make people smile, but I still feel the same inside? I've been told by a lot of people that they're surprised i've turned out the way I have, they expected me to be a trouble maker who smokes or something, but i'm really the opposite.

Recently, i've been told that i'm isolating myself and I look really down. I hadn't really noticed to be honest, but I really do feel like crying at everything, i've lost my apetite for quite a while now, even though I know i'm hungry, I don't feel hungry enough to eat?

My dad has recently split with his girlfriend, she made our lives hell, her entire family had been in jail so she said she'd find someone to 'bump' off my dad, which I wouldn't be able to cope with especially because my mum died in 2004.

Before they had broken up, they all moved into our house, a couple of months being together. She had 3 kids too, me and my brother both had to give up our rooms and they were constantly stealing from us and making us lose our temper.

I've spoken to a few people about how I feel, they told me I should get councelling, but i've spoken to so many people, I just don't think it will make a difference.

I'm slowly giving up on everything, i'm predicted an A-A* in a lot of my subjects, but I got an E in my Maths mock and my Science; the only subject I seem to be doing well in is English.

I've been accused of plagiarism in one of my options, I spent so long on my coursework that I didn't realise I forgot to change a paragraph into my own words and it's now too late to resubmit any coursework, so i'm not sure what's going to happen now. I'll fail everything, including my English that i've worked so hard getting 5*s in.

I've contemplated suicide, I know I shouldn't because this doesn't seem losing my life over, but, I have nothing going for me at the minute, except for my boyfriend, but if I do fail my work because of 'plagiarism', I can't go to college, hence, no future career, no money, nothing.