I know too well what you are going through. Mental abuse is more difficult to deal with and get over than people realize. Just the idea that your boyfriend called you "mental" the other day doesn't make things better. Name calling is mental abuse and you need to start off by staying away from anyone who calls you names or doesn't treat you the way you should be treated. You are only 20 years old and have your whole life ahead of you. Your parents don't understand because they have probably never experienced mental or emotional abuse. You need to start off by finding a psychologist that you are comfortable speaking to. All of what you are feeling is from being emotionally abused by jerks that don't deserve you. You can fix this, I did. I was in one emotionally abusive relationship after another until I met my husband who has never said a mean word to me. I worked with doctors and on myself to be strong. I was left with horrible anxiety but I deal with it. One of the most important lessons my psychologist taught me was to just stay away from anyone who made me feel bad. You said your current boyfriend will probably be breaking up with you soon, well I know it's not easy but dump him first. It may hurt because break-ups always do but you will feel good about yourself that you saved yourself from his abuse. I found that when I started getting tougher and closing the door on the abuse things started to change in my life and people treated me differently; they treated me the way I wanted to be treated. My advice to you would be to seek help from a psychologist, take a break from boyfriends until you learn to love yourself and then you will find a great guy and make new friends that will have more respect for your feelings. Think about your best friend. If she was such a best friend she would be there to help you and not leave you behind, but unfortunately that's what happens when we get depressed. We begin to push people away and they just don't understand. I would also advise you to get your parents involved in some of your sessions with a psychologist so they can learn to understand what you are going through. I hope i've given you some good advice. It's up to you whether or not you want to make use of it. Trust me I've been in your shoes and I know what works. Good luck to you and I'm here if you need to talk.

When you go to your doctor, ask to take a mental health evaluation. All doctors offices have them, fill it out honestly, ask your doctor for a prescription, but your doctor is right- you do need to seek counseling, especially when you are taking prescription meds, so get a counselor too. I understand what you're going through, it's tough, but you can get treated for it and recover.