I have been depress for most of my life... Mainly cause my bio mother didn't care about me, once my little brother was born. n on top of all of that all she cared about was sex... we ended up getting taken away cause she was with a child molester. who is now back on the street after going back to prison for trying to do what he did to me to another young helpless girl. Anyways, I didn't get really depress until after i had my second son Derek on Feb 2 of this year. Mainly cause everything went wrong after i had him. The day after he was born my boss n i notice he was breathing fast. the doctor said it was normal. knowing it wasn't. the next day my husband told me that Derek is under a breathing shield. i started to cry. then i couldn't walk or nothing they thought i may have shingle whatever that is. the hospital ended up blowing a vein in both of his hands cause the night nurses didn't keep a eye on him or about three hours. they even admitted to it. so he ended up getting skin graphs done. so he got transfer to Bronson that's a good hospital. he got better, he has scars on his hands but he is my little chunky butt. lol

me it took over a month for me to get treated for whatever i had. i still dont know what caused it. i had a hip bone infection on top of ammonia and anemia and blood clots. its hard not being able to take care of your own kids being stuck on the couch. i couldn't ever take a shower or nothing cause i was in so much pain. i was very close n committed suicide. i am glad i didn't know. cause i am healthy kinda and working and enjoying my kids.
i can never forget what happened mainly cause my son's scares remind me about it and my hip pain that i still have reminds me about it. in being scared if i ever do get pregnant again that this same thing could happen scare me the death. i well never go back to that hospital i thought. i went Tuesday cause of my hip pain and the doctor told me he was very nice that if i don't go see a bone doctor soon i could need a hip replacement. problem i dont have health insurance. at all.... which i hate cause i still have all these issues...
money is tight my husband is disabled.