Me and my boyfreind have been trying for a baby for over a year now I was diognosed with PCOS at the age of 14. Now scince we started trying for a baby and recently found out that there was only a small chance that I may become pregnat the fact has hit me that I might never be able to have children the only thing I have wanted the most all my life. It is getting to a stage now when I will lay in bed all day and cry and be depresed and miserible all the time, when I see a baby it makes me worse. I feel like it should just be mine I have had to stop seeing my nices and nephews as much as I just want to take them home with me. It dosen't help that my boyfreinds sister who lives with me has a 2 week old baby I feel like im acting as if she is mine and I just can't stop myself. I feel as if her mother dosen't deserve her as she is single wasn't trying for a baby and no longer with the dad. (I help her out a lot)like having her throgh the night ect just so I can pretend shes mine. As soon as im alone with her I cry and if anyone says anything bad about her I just want to burst into tears. Someone please help I am starting to scare myself. Some people might think that I am jelous or selfish but I really can't help it and scared to go to the doctor incase he thinks im a nut. Please give me some advise
Thank You