Well, my first real girlfriend of 8 months and I broke up because of the fact that we're going to different colleges. We tried to make it work for the first few weeks, but it really wasn't working out. It was a mutual break up but we left it that we still loved each other, and that we hope that one day we'll be married. A few days after we broke up I found out that she cheated on me while I was on a trip to China, with a guy who she had broken up with me near the start of our relationship.
Apparently he came to her house in the middle of the nite and told her that he loved her, she kissed him and told him he'd have to wait for her. That was the first time she cheated on me, the second time she cheated on me was with a girl after we had a big fight. Neither girl was drunk, and they weren't just experimenting. Before I found out about the girl, I had already confronted her about the guy, which she convinced me that she just wanted to get revenge on him by making him think that they could plausibly be together.
I accepted that and we ended up hooking up( although we're broken up.) The next day I found out about the girl, I called her but she didn't answer because she was at another guy's house who she went on a date with that nite. She called me back and gave a lame excuse as to why it happened, basically she said it was my fault. I don't know if I can ever trust her again in a relationship or friendship, she says she loves me and that we will be together again, or so she promises. I don't know what to do I'm extremely depressed and have been having panic attacks and throwing up. Any advice would be appreciated as to what I should do.