Deppresion and puberty

i feel alone. i feel deppressed because im not happy. everytime im self conciouse and try to make my self happy, i fail and that makes me deppress. i feel alone because i am embarress to share my feelings with my friends. they will make fun of me. i have no one to talk to about this. i know that im feeling all of these emotions because im going through puberty. i understand that. i just want it to stop. i want someone to understand me. i dont want to feel alone anymore. everyday seems like just another day of me trying to figure something out, trying to make my self happy trying to end all of these wild emotions that tells me to do this and that. i just want to be normal, how i used to be. i just... dont know i want it to stop