I am suffering from depression and anxiety due to depo-provera (already talked to an OB, and she said that it HAS to be from that), and I am barely coping. It's been 6 days and I'm already ready to give up on myself, and I see no end in sight. I'm losing hope. I wish I had never taken it. I'm also suffering from fatigue and headaches. My head feels so heavy, I can barely hold it up. I am 18 years old, I have had a history of anxiety and depression (after a traumatic experience with synthetic pot about 3 years ago; I have NOT smoked ANYTHING since then; I also do not drink.), but it had faded incredibly since then, it had basically disappeared. I gave birth to my baby boy about 2 months ago, and I had not been so depressed. I did experience the 'baby blues', but that had faded rather quickly. I LOVE my baby, and I have not had a problem taking care of him, and I haven't had problems sleeping since the end of the 3rd week home. I have a wonderful support group, I get to take breaks, and spend time with my boyfriend, often. Everything was perfect. I was SOOOO happy being a mother. And then I got on Depo... About a day went by, and I was still fine, but I haven't been all right since. Now I can't escape from my thoughts, my head hurts, I cry randomly, I can't push it away like I used to, I can't get happy, I'm scared of everything (LIKE GOING OUTSIDE!!! !), I (sometimes) feel de-personilization where I don't feel like me; or I'm watching someone else's life, I don't enjoy things that I used to, depression and anxiety (of course), nausea, paranoia, constant worry, and worst of all, I'm staring to feel distant from my beautiful son, who I've just started to get to know. This is TEARING me apart. I went to an OB and all she told me was, "it won't stop until the depo leaves your body, which will take AT LEAST 3 months.", then she gave me a prescription for antidepressants (which I DO NOT want to take). She told me that nothing else could be done. I FEEL HOPELESS. I don't want to live this way. Then she said that if it gets worse, they'll have to send me to a mental hospital for observation, like i'm developing some kind of mental illness or something. I feel like I'm losing myself, I need help BAD(!!!!!!!!!). My mom says I should take natural things like fish oil, valerian root, and St. John's Wort. Would this really help? Please someone, give me hope before I lose my MIND. Please, please, PLEASE help me.
girl. after reading ur post, my opinion u need to seriously consider a different type of birth control because what ur experiencing wit Depo I think ur better off just getting on the pill, my sister is on that Loestrin pill and she loves it cause what its doing to you thats not normal. Thats why my husband insisted that I quit Depo which it messed me up different from what its doing to you, which it affects differently in women. (I forgot to put this in my blog) but another reason I quit Depo was cause my doctor told me Depo was eating holes in girls belly and they were even talking bout changing the injection site to the arm but that was back in 2011 and that scared me cause it was leaving noticable hard knots on my belly. Feel free to read my blog on what it did to me. because reading what its doing to you breaks my heart, I hate hearing what stuff does to people, I feel so bad on what its doing to you. if u EVER need somebody to talk to please INBOX me Im all ears cause I been thru ALOT in life and I know how it feels to go crazy and not have somebody to talk to. and I mean it! if u need somebody to talk to Im here I check my stuff on here daily. please hang in there and take care of ur baby and urself girly