delusions after marijuana Posted: 07-15-08 13:40pm
So, I was completely normal for ther first
18 years of my life. Than, it started
around the summer of 2006 when I first
tried marijuana (first and last time at
that). I believe the marijuana was laced
but thats another topic. I had psychosis
and I thought a demon had chased me and I
thought Id died as a result of the
marijuana. Than, one day a few weeks
later, I was in my room watching
television and the show was like about
christ, etc, etc. So, I guess I
experienced psychosis again and I just
started acting completely weird. My mom
took me to a hospital and I was put in the
psych ward. This just started the downward
spiral. Ive been on haldol for the past
two years and some days I feel good, and
some days I dont. I see illusions and have
delusions or whatever, I dont ever recall
having hallucinations or hearing voices
though, I just feel like im losing touch
with reality sometimes and having
grandiose thoughts. The battles seems to
be between me, god, and satan. During the
day, Im completely normal. But, it's at
night when the thoughts happen. I think Im
being attacked by demons, aliens, or
monsters. It's completely weird.
Sometimes, I cant even sleep at all.
Sometimes ill have my eyes closed for a
bit and the thoughts just bombard me and
when I open my eyes and look behind me, I
think somethings gonna come attack me. And
also, dont let there be a show on tv about
God, or an advertisement about a scary
movie, it just seems like its too good to
be true. What can I be experiencing?
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antigone
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Posted: 07-15-08 15:36pm
I would strongly suggest you get to a
psychiatrist and get evaluated. Paranoia,
grandiosity, losing touch with reality and
delusional material all suggest some type
of psychiatric disorder. You need a doctor
to evaluate and diagnose you.
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CarolDiane
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Posted: 07-15-08 16:21pm
antigone
wrote:
I would strongly suggest you
get to a psychiatrist and get evaluated.
Paranoia, grandiosity, losing touch with
reality and delusional material all
suggest some type of psychiatric disorder.
You need a doctor to evaluate and diagnose
you.
I agree strongly with the above.
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arconis
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Joined: 26 Jul 2008 Posts: 5
Posted: 07-26-08 13:20pm
Hmmm, since you already have developed a
true belief system, maybe I (schizo, dunno
if you are) can help...
The battles seems to be between me, god,
and satan. During the day, Im completely
normal. But, it's at night when the
thoughts happen. I think Im being attacked
by demons, aliens, or monsters. It's
completely weird. Sometimes, I cant even
sleep at all. Sometimes ill have my eyes
closed for a bit and the thoughts just
bombard me and when I open my eyes and
look behind me, I think somethings gonna
come attack me. And also, dont let there
be a show on tv about God, or an
advertisement about a scary movie, it just
seems like its too good to be true. What
can I be experiencing?
You truly believe and know there is a God,
you may be able to catch glances of what
is happening in the spiritual world, but
you will not be able to understand it
completely...we we're not created that
way. Your faith (which will be with you
20 years from now, solid as a stone) is
causing you to feel your heart, then
insecurity comes in and screws it all
up...it will happen all the time and I
suggest you don't fight it...be submissive
and let it happen, it sounds like the end
result is a negative, but I assure you
it's not, it's very...hmmm.....peaceful
really...
You are in this somewhat deep...that is
why I am offering this off-the-wall advice
to you. Others reading this post, I am
aware of the odd nature of my
suggestions...I had to go through this
crap all alone and it sucked, I do think
it is somewhat helpful and you are more
than entitled to think differently
(duh)...
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NightStar
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Posted: 07-26-08 18:09pm
I don't suffer the same as you but I am
bipolar and have racing thoughts. I don't
like letting my mind wander so at night I
keep the tv on, so I just drowned out my
thoughts and that helps me fall asleep.
Just make sure not to turn it onto
channels that have shows about religion.
But you need to go back to your doctor and
let them know that you need your
medication adjusted that you are having
trouble. They need to know this so they
can help you.
