I am 17, never kissed a girl, never really had a close girl that was friend except Once in middle school. We don't talk anymore. I feel so empty and i just feel like I will never have a relationship. I will never be able to say I love you to a girl, or cuddle with her, or have sex. I've tried to improve myself by losing 75lbs to gain confidence but it hasn't done what I wanted it to. I see how happy others are and i am so jealous of them. I feel like I'm messed up. Somewhere whether it be in the head or maybe I'm just too unattractive. Maybe I'm too nice, I find it difficult to be mean. I just feel bad on the inside. I guess since I'm not a douchebag there's no hope for me. I'm almost done with high school and I feel like I missed my chance. Everyone learned how to date and I'm just stuck now. I don't know what to do, I just feel like something is missing. In terrified of being alone my whole life without anyone. I almost breakdown thinking about it. I've heard everything from "there's someone out there" to "keep looking" it never used to bother me this much but now I'm feeling hopeless. I don't know what I expect anyone to say, I just felt like venting instead crying again. Thanks for anyone who actually read this and responded.
hey,dear isitonu33,hmm,just wanted to say,thad good days for you will come,be sure of that....and until than...just try not to depend on that situation,try to think about something else..try even to make fun of all that..if you want..dont pay attention..pretend that doesnt matter to you...that you are happy with what you;ve got...and one day,unexpectedly,you;ll find just what you;ve been looking for...just be patient and have faith...you;ll see