I have HPV (the cancer kind, not the wart kind). I finally got used to the idea, and found out i have herpes type II. I thought I had a yeast infection, and was so caught off gaurd. Anyway, i get outbreaks monthly, and everytime I feel worthless, ugly, like noone can love me. I have a boyfriend (and we are pretty sure he gave it to me without knowing). He's loving and veyr supportive, but I'm scared to death of losing him, because I feel like noone will want me ever again. I feel dirty. I hate everything about being female, everything about sex, everything about myself when i have an outbreak. I'm pretty close to feeling like that anyway, but when i'm having an outbreak it's worse. to the people who have had this for a while, how do you deal? I dont know if i can do this forever... I want this to be like HPV, and will just go away eventualy. It makes me feel filthy to know that I'm going to be old and in dipers in some nursinghome having outbreaks.

How do you all deal? I really need advice.