I just found out few days ago that i have it...
What do i do? i just can''t bear it... Wiill i be able to get over it
or will i be thinking about it contantly? it will remind me contantly
if i have to take tablet every single day! i can''t live with that...
Im too scared to touch my family and loves one in the fear that
they will catch it... My girlfriend is there for me right now but is
frighten to touch me through skin but ok with clothes... Its so
depressing... I''ve been finding a way to die painless death
because i don''t want HIV to beat me.. i want to be able to choose
my own death but the thought of future cure and my family is what is
stopping me from going ahead... I just can''t cope... Everything looked
different now that i got it... i just wish i treasure it before...
Im too young to start worrying about how many years left...
Should i wait for cure or to put myself out of misery??