Hello, this is my 2nd post but I sorta gave an summary on who I am in my first post but I'll go into detail.

I am a male 18 years old in college and I have the feeling of loneliness internalized. I also have random episodes in which I am with a group of my "friends" or random aquitances in which I feel perfectly happy the first second and the next second I feel unwanted by the group of people that I am hanging out with and tend to, what my therapist calls, "social withdraw" where I leave the group of people that I am hanging with.

I feel that trusting anyone, society is no longer something I can do. All this hurts inside.



I've already developed the feeling of being fat which has caused me to change my eating habitats in a negative fashion and I am now a gym manica because of the fear of getting fat and people making fun of me.

I feel that I am socially awkward. I always try my best not to be who I am because in high school and before that people who knew me the why I normally act don't like it and tend to avoid me at all cost.

All this started in my 2nd semester of school which my academic grades have been slipping due to all this.

I fear that if this contiunes on that it will eventually make me believe what I am currently thinking in my head -- avoiding an social interaction.

Any advice?