Where to start....

I'm 17. I was with my boyfriend for 2 years, after a year and a bit of us going out we tried to have sex. We tried one night, but it was excrutiating, it was as if my body was going to rip in two. We then tried again a few nights later, he got in, but it was so sore that I could have threw up with the pain. He couldn't move inside me, he couldn't "have sex" as such, he couldn't even pull out because I wouldn't let him move it was so painful.

From that second on, I was burning down below, when I peed and when I didn't pee. Just constant. I went to the doctors and it turned out to be a UTI. Got antibiotics, and thought it would be ok. About 3 months later me and my boyfriend tried again, again it was the same. It was so so sore. The next day, couldn't pee and burning. I went to the doctor and had all the urine tests but nothing showed up.

When I wipe myself or sit forward I get a stabbing pain. When I have sex it's like all my insides are raw and my skin is being grated away with a cheese grater. It's like a knife is being stuck in, right into my stomach and the pain goes right up to my chest and I feel like my whole body will just blow up. And that's not exaggerating.

Two years on I still can't pee without pain, still have pain every day, still can't have sex or even be touched there because of the agony. I have been to hospitals and had cystoscopies and a laparoscopy, on the depo injection for endometriosis, gone to GYNs, urologists, dermatologists, GPS, psychologists, you name it..

I got told what I need to do is "go to uni and have a good time"

These problems ruined my school attendance and I don't want it ruining uni, but the GYN I was at today said there is nothing more they can do, there's nothing wrong with me.

I had severe depression because of this, it's ruining my life. I've been told by one GP "don't have sex, don't have children" and I said to her about how I'll never get a husband if I can't have sex with them, they'd probably cheat on my and I'd end up feeling even worse, and she said "well don't get married then "

I'm so so sick of doctors, they really don't care. Since January when I was 16 I have lived every day in pain, miserable and never getting any better. Only to be told there is nothing wrong with me. I've been on the verge of suicide so many times in the past year and a half, I've lost my boyfriend and I've hurt so many people with my depression. Doctors really don't care. I don't know what else to do, I wont be able to have a life, or a proper relationship whilst I am being seen to by crap doctors. I have even applied to go private but it's the same half-arsed doctors that would see me! The only difference would be that I'm paying them thousands to tell me "Don't have sex, ever"

Please someone, anyone, help. I'm really at my wits end. I know everyone will say "Sex isn't everything" but it means a lot to me, I want to have sex, or at least have some form of sexual contact with the person I love, and I can't. And the way things are going, I'm never going to be able to, because there's "nothing wrong with me"