Hi hon..I was sick yesterday and didn;t get on computer..
How old are you know? I am so sorry about your dad., when did he pass on?.I have lost my mom and older brother and I know the kind of pain you talk of..
You can get away from the cutting honey..It''s not easy but it can be done..
That your reaction to your mom learning about your cutting made you feel so awful is good in that you know it is a bad way to releave your pain..you don''t want to hurt your mom..Did you all talk? Is she listening? It''s important that you talk, ok..
The best thing I can tell you is--use the energy of all you feel and take it out on physical exercise..You think you are in good shape now wait until you pour all that pain, anger,fear and whatever else is brewing in you into exercise..I;m not talking about 20 mintues moving around a little-I''m talking about sweat pouring exercise..Kick boxing is my favorite as you use so many different muscles and it''s fun and taxing..But, biking along a great trail or running and letting thewind rush by you would also be great..
Keep a diary about your life what you are going through and the steps you are taking..k