I'm haven't been diagnosed with anything.

Over the past couple of months, I've been feeling really down (had a baby 11 months ago, and am on Beta Blockers for my heart). So, I keep thinking that I would feel better if I could just cry it out. So, I'll watch a sad movie, or read a sad ending book etc. But instead of crying, I can hear myself crying in my head, but I'm not crying on the outside. It's really odd. I'll even try to make the noises like I'm trying to cry, but I can't, it just wails on in head!

Recently, whenever I'm even a bit stressed, I can hear myself crying in my head. When before, I really had to try to make myself cry.

Also, I've been getting really mad lately, and throwing things and hitting walls etc. really embarrassing stuff. I used to do that kinda thing when I was younger all the time, but not since I left home, and that was 6 years ago. Also, when I was younger, Id's hear my mom calling my name all the time, but she wasn't home or didn't actually call me at all. I's also hear my younger brother calling me, or doors opening and closing, and nobody would be doing those things.

Anyway, I'm going to the doctor in two weeks to talk about refilling my prescription for my heart med (Atenolol) and I'm not sure if I'll bring it up b/c it could just be stress.

Any thoughts : )