To GreyWolf:
You wrote:
"I have no concept of a creator, because then my next question would most likely be "But where did the creator come from?" !"
Alright, I like the way you have written your post and that"s why I feel interested to make an honest effort to answer your questions. In my opinion, the definition of God is He is Uncreated. Nothing created Him but He created the wonderful heavens and the earth. He was there before time and He will always be there.
You wrote:
"I went to a Christian primary school, however I was never religious and nor were my parents, I've always believed in evolution. My mum is pagan and my dad is atheist, so as a child at a Christian school, I was always I was in the middle of conflicting views. My parents at home teaching me about Darwin and the Big Bang and Steven Hawking. My school teaching about intelligent design and creation. I'm naturally a very curious person. Why did God create suffering? If free will gave us the power to do immense evil and harm to each other, then why did God give us it? However I was always told at school "That's just the way things are, never question God".
I never made a conscious decision NOT to believe in God, I just never really did."
Nobody becomes religious by going in a religious school NOR is God confined to a place of worship. What you feel from the bottom of you heart reflects your faith. God's Majesty is INFINITELY beyond our imagination. Darwin's theory is a "theory" NOT a "proven scientific fact". As far as Big Bang is concerned it conforms to my religion. By saying that I am NOT inviting you to my religion NOR do I claim my religion is the right one. God Himself guides people and if you deserve to be guided He will guide you. God created suffering because this life is a test for the after life. In my opinion, the more faith you have in you, the more difficult sufferings you may have to face in this life so that God can see how strong you faith is. A faithful person will still have faith in God and wait for His Mercy whereas a not so faithful person may start blaming God. He gave us free will because it's the necessary prerequisite for the test. If you don't have the free will then it's not a test. Before sitting for an exam, you have the free will to study or not. If you want to do well you will study and if you don't want you won't. I don't believe in blind faith nor do I like the idea of not questioning God. However, your objective should be to know God not necessarily to reject Him. If you want to reject something you can reject something as true as a mathematical identity but if you are a blind follower you may accept something very wrong as well.
You wrote:
"I am atheist (but not AN atheist), and recognise the powers of nature themselves as our creator, and science as revealing the workings of the Universe. It's subtly different to Atheism. I have always been very into nature since I was very small. I was fascinated by the sheer beauty and awesomeness of the Earth and Universe, and always felt a sense of reverence towards them. My dad would show me the planets, stars and sun-spots through a telescope, and the pictures from Hubble, and my mum would teach me about animals and wildlife. I wasn't revering them because of what created them, I was revering them for what they WERE. I discovered scientific pantheism a few years ago when I stumbled across a website by mistake, and although I won't refer to my beliefs by any particular name, I felt like I identified with them."
Whether you want to be "atheist", "an atheist", or belong to a religious community is your choice. God will show you His signs; it's up to you to accept/reject them. The fact that you are fascinated by the awesomeness of the universe tells a great deal about you. Not a lot of people think about the beautiful vastness of space. It's important to realize the earth is not even a minuscule entity as compared to the incredibly giant universe and we are even lesser an entity. You have already taken a huge step towards believing in God, in my opinion. The wonderful constellations and the mansion of the stars in will tell you a lot more about God.
You wrote:
"I do not believe there is anyone judging us or enforcing rules as to how I live my life and what I believe. As long as no-one is harmed, and no-one interferes in the free-will and privacy of others."
In general, there is no force in religious matters but you have to follow certain rules and regulations in the country you are living to maintain peace and harmony.
You wrote:
"So to cut a long story short I believe in evolution and the big bang. We evolved from apes, which evolved from other primates, so-on-and-so-forth, back to the first life-forms which were created when specific chemicals hapened to combine in a winning combination creating the first DNA."
As I said before, Darwin's Theory is a theory not an established scientific fact. I also believe in Big Bang (see Quran 21:30).
You wrote:
"I do believe however that science will never ever reveal the entire truth about the Universe, there will always be some things we will never know. That's how things are meant to be, and to me it is part of the amazing beauty of the Universe. The Universe is huge and mysterious but that brings me comfort."
I also think the same!
You wrote:
"Sorry for the life-story!"
I like reading your story and that's why I have written such a long post!
Finally, I am NOT inviting you to my religion NOR am I claiming my religion is right. I am NOT the one who knows everything NOR do I wish to be the one who knows too much. I have just made an honest effort to answer you and judge my mistakes with kindness because I am not infallible. I believe you can go to heaven irrespective of you are a Muslim/Christian/Jew because God knows best who has Him in his heart. I love people of all religions. You will be in my prayers.
God bless you!
Glory be to God, The Lord of the Worlds!