hi,im a 15 year old female,i kinda want to ask something thats been on my mind for a while but havent because i didnt want to sound like a hypercondriac or like i was over thinking things.but lately my symptoms seem to be getting worse.i have actually allways felt like there could be something not quite right but now im afraid i could be bipolar.
this started when i turned 14 i started to change,at first it was nothing just the usually teenage things.but now,2 years later things are bad im im getting worried,i found out that my parents even thought i might be taking drugs.
iv been having extreme feelings of depression over the most small of things,things that matter dont anymore,iv become extremely distant from everyone,and i have gained alot of weight the past 2 years.also iv have been having terrible dreams that are to horrible to even say,i have also been thinking alot about death.i even started cutting myself after getting depressed from listening to a song.these ideas just started running wild in my head,as if that was my life,and i couldnt help but start crying uncontrolably.
what worried me the most and made me start to think was my short temper and bad judgement.
im worried and not sure what to do or even how to tell this kind of stuff to my parents.i dont want them to think im saying i could be bipolar to act like a drama queen.
Bipolar is a mix of depression and mania. There are two types, BP I and BP II. Bipolar I is when a person will go through a depression period and then to a highly manic period. In mania, a person might experience delusions of gradious ("I can do ANYTHING"), have a large amount of energy and not even have to sleep during the night and feel fine the next day. During these manic phases, they may get irritable, and lash our, due to having more energy to do so. They may feel as though they are on top of the world, although some of their most concerning symptoms are during this time (higher risk for suicide, over-sexual behavior, shopping sprees, living without limits). When the depressed state hits, its complete opposite of mania. This is a major depression. For BPII, the mania is not as bad, but the person suffers from depression still. They still have minor mania, but the mood swings are not as big. I forgot to mention that anger problems are often a sign of mania as well. If you have bipolar, my suggestion is that you talk to your parents and make an appointment to a pediatrician. More than likely your parents will not tell you that you are being a drama queen, but if you are still reluctant, you can try to speak to the school counselor about it, and then your pediatrician. Living with bipolar is not fun, especially when you dont have a support system. That is why I suggest you talk to your paretns about it. I think counseling would help.
thank you for replying to this note.what you have said does discribe a lot of what is happening to me.but im not sure witch for the two discribes me better.i have still not said anything yet.but thank you for the support.