I wish I knew. I was diagnosed with BP but have never really accepted that I have it nor have I accepted medications for it. I only have valium for my panic attacks. I generally don't lash out at strangers but my fiance tends to catch it hard. The thing is I just can't walk away, it is like this now or never thing, that moment is the moment the issue has to be dealt with. I will yell and say very hurtful things only to later wonder why I was so angry in the first place. When I'm angry, he will tell me to go take a valium and that really gets me defensive. I go over the simplest bits of conversations had for days and days after wondering and guessing about what the other person thought of me and how what I said could be mis construed. I can identify when I'm being irrational sometimes but even that doesn't make the thoughts go away.

Peanuts, you should consider how your moods effect others. Your fiance deserves the best of you. Consider medication. It will not fix all the mood swings. It may make them less severe. If you add some therapy and a mode of relaxation to the equation you may find your moods even out a bit and now you will have new coping skills to help you further. Bipolar disorder is difficult under the best circumstances. It can be devastating when left untreated. I hope you will consider treatment. You deserve to feel more control over your emotions. You deserve to have a more stable and balanced life. All the best.

I want to. I have even excepted a prescription for lithium and gotten it filled. I just couldn't bring myself to take it. There are so many medications that we later find out cause cancer or, in the case of my father with seroquel, destroy your liver. I guess I need to be greatful for my valium for now anyway since I just lost my medicaid due to privateization. I am just so scared of those medicines that alter the chemical balances in your brain. What medications have others had good luck with?

I also find the rage part of bipolar disorder to be most frustrating. Sometimes just a person sitting too close to me on a bus would be enough to set me off into a fit. Later on it doesn't make sense at all...so so frustrating. Anyone else have attacks like this? I have started taking lamictal- it seems to help but still at times stimulation of any degree just makes me crazy.

hey, im in a very stable relationship with my BD boyfriend. But the thing is, he doesnt show up for college when he has a 'rage' or 'depression' i'm not sure what to do really or what to say...HELP

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I'm new here-just in case I wanted to say Hi I'm feeling ya- I got what you got so please let me know if you've found any other natural remedies-I'm excercising regularly now and I'm thinking bout fish oils and B vitamins thanks =) How is ur fiance n' u managing!? I'm not doing 2 well in my relationship rt now =(