This probably doesn't belong in the depression forum, but it might be the closest thing here that my problems relate to. I'm listing my symptoms now, in case someone has some help they can offer but doesn't want to read through the rest of the rubbish. The first two on the list are my biggest concerns, the rest are most likely unrelated, but I've had these problems for years.

-Constantly tired
-Severely apathetic
-Emotionless
-Low libido
-Inconsistent bowel movements
-When I do have a bowel movement it's often large, painful, clogs the toilet and sometimes causes some bleeding (I'm 130 pounds, that don't seem right)
-Hands are intolerant to cold and are easily dried from it to the point of cracking and bleeding.
-Can not gain weight
-Occasional stabbing pain in the heart region. Hasn't happened in these last months though.
-Recently a large bag of milk was left out and spoiled while I was working and I could not smell it at all despite the customers nearly gagging on the stench. Possibly couldn't smell it because it developed while I was there.



Things about myself:

-I don't drink or do drugs of any sort (except some caffeine)
-I normally sleep 9-10 hours, with and without an alarm involved. When I do sleep less, it usually doesn't make a difference except possibly leaving me even more tired.
-My diet mainly consists of burgers, hot dogs, pizza, chicken, waffles, bananas. Although my diet sucks, it's been mostly the same and I didn't use to have the problems that I do.
-Just started taking a daily multivitamin with 250mg of caffeine.
-Also started taking Ginkoba, which claims to improve brain functions by increasing it's oxygen flow.
-Doubt my memory is all that great, but it's rarely called into question
-Since I've been the way that I am, I don't think I've gotten headaches, but that might be because of my apathy since nothing seems to get me stressed out. Though in the winter I did have one really bad sinus headache. Never had a sinus headache prior to that.



Not sure what kind of problem I have, n' not so sure on what forum to go to with it. For years I've just been tired n' apathetic, so much so that it's as if I have to make an effort to actually give a damn about anything. It started either during or after my teen years, since I know during that time I used to be have all the feelings that come standard in life; love, joy, sadness, maybe some depression, a few violently homicidal thoughts, but now I got nothin'. I've been with my current girlfriend for a couple years now n' I've been this way all throughout, and I might now lose her because of it (well this and some other issues, but mostly this). It doesn't really phase me that she might be leaving me, but I can't even imagine finding someone more suitable for me than her. It's kinda hard on her when she's in love with me and I literally can't love. I can like, but in a relationship a "Hey, I think you're cool" doesn't really do it.
She thinks I might have depression, but I don't hate life, get upset, feel worthless, want to die, I just have no will or ambition or feelings or energy. There is nothing I care to do, nothing I can be enthusiastic about, nothing. In fact I was "content" with our relationship, but I know that I shouldn't have been, and the only time that there's a problem is when she says there's one.

Anywho, another symptom of mine is that I'm constantly tired. From the moment I get up and beyond. I usually sleep 9-10 hours, but no matter how much I get the only thing that changes is how tired I am. Normally I'm a heavy Pepsi/Coke drinker, but some years ago for 9 months straight I drank only water n' experienced no change in my health at all. Recently I've started drinking just water again, and I've also started taking a daily multivitamin with 250 mg of caffeine in it. Says it's as much as a regular cup of coffee, but not even that deters my desire to sleep.

I'm only now seriously trying to get this issue of mine situated, since severe apathy seems to have made me not concerned at all about the way I am n' think that it might even be normal to be this way. Compared to how I used to be, I can barely be considered alive. After searching my symptoms the best possible explanation I can find for my condition is Hypothyroidism, but weight gain is usually a factor in that and I, being 5"10 and 130 pounds and have been at such for nearly a decade, do not have that issue. I can not gain weight, at all, no matter how much I eat.

Also I don't have much of a libido, but I'd think that would really tie into my apathy. When we get sexual with each other, my main concern is getting her off. Whether or not I do doesn't bother me, so a lot of the effort I make is forced.

I do intend on seeing a doctor about this soon, but I'd like to have an idea of what it might be.