(i am sorry for my bad English) For 2 years i live in a depression which lost it's reasons. It all started from a girl that broke up with me... but somehow i got over her... but not over the depression... I am empty inside... I cannot feel anything but confusion, sadness, pain. My friends are trying herd to support me, and I've even got a new girlfriend but still i am depressed. It's like i've lost my will to live. I have no reasons to be sad but i am... I have achieved the "performance" of not caring about my friends and girlfriend (lately all i want to do is hurt them). I am sorry i can't express myself too cursive right now but my head is all a mess. I don't wanna die because I'm a coward but i don't wanna live either.Everyday seems like yesterday and tomorrow and they have no meaning at all, i end up wasting my days. Lately I've had some visions related to some places i can't identify and with them came a feeling of nostalgia but i never get to see well those places or they are to common to identify and i sometimes I'm losing track of reality ending up in a daydream and when i wake up from it I'm all mad and frustrated. I had the thoughts of going to a specialist but it's something in my head that says to me "don't go!" and i end up not going. what should i do, i am confused...