Well, lately, ive been not being able to sleep, like i CANT sleep at all but at the same time i dont want to move around i have no energy.
For a loooong time in my life i just was always there for ANYTIME anyone needed ANYTHING, and lately i just got too tired and stopped being able to do it as much, and i feel like everyone is gone cuz i wont do stuff for them, (and maybe its just me thinking this?)
but enough with the story, no matter how many ppl im with i feel alone, and no matter how happy the atmosphere is, i cant seem to be positive, its like everytime someone is talking i just repeat in my head some random things like "oh whatever you just want a ride." or "gee i wonder what they're gonna ask this time..."
and im soooo paranoid wen it comes to my gf, i cant even stand a list of guys.. its like i HAVE to know them and know about them to not get agitated when she starts talking about them...
the list goes on so imma just stop. but i mean.. what could i do to fix the negativity? or least feel happy sumtimes?.