These last three months of have been some of the toughest of my life...I dated a girl for about a year, we actually broke up 3 days before our 1 year anniversary... Funny enough I decided to break it off with her...mainly cuz we were fighting a lot and i felt we needed a break and decide how we really felt...So yeah, that seemed like a good plan, we saw each other the day after we broke up cuz we lived together, and decided she should move home and we will just take a break for awhile...

So yeah I was kind of excited to meet new people at first, but after about a week...I missed her like crazy, and told her about it constantly and about how much I loved her and what not, but she like did a total 180 within in two weeks of being single, she decided she just wanted to be friends for quite awhile and she would decide when she was ready to get back together..

Well I was okay with that at first, but I never saw her anymore, and she started hanging out with all these new friends, and her ex boyfriend, who is supposedly her best friend and she promised they were nothing more..

We began to fight some more, cuz it hurt me so bad that she never wanted to see me, I saw her maybe once a week, to go from seeing her everday to once is a week is a big change for me, and it hurt. I missed her like crazy, but she didn't seem to think it was a big deal...

I was so bummed out one night, I got so drunk and overslept and ended up losing my job cuz I never called in...at the point, me and her were barely talking, and I pretty much had a mental breakdown that day, I was having anxiety and panic attacks like crazy..

I ended up seeing a doctor cuz for three days straight I couldn't eat, sleep, or do anything basically, I started taking prozac and I waited two weeks, even a month, and it really did not help...I still hardly saw her, and I had no job, and the worse anxiety of my life..

I was continuing to drink cuz I was completely miserable and the pills made me feel terrible so I kicked those, and I am taking herbal supplements now, they seem to help a little, but after three almost four months...I'm still so broken hearted..

I'm even debating on moving away cuz I everywhere I go here, I feel just like crying, cuz I miss her so much, and its pretty much over at this point, she decided she only wants to be friends...the thought of her seeing other people makes my stomach cringe..

I try to stay busy, but it doesnt help, looking for a job is nightmare, I feel like I'm goin crazy, and I'm so sad I just dont know what to do anymore...