K...So I've been addicted to tylenol 1 with codeine for several years. I won't even tell you how many I take...but My life needs a new start. Just ended a relationship that I'd been in since I was 17 (12 yrs long). Now...I need to work on me...and find out who I am. I can't do that while still popping these pills like candy. I quit once before...but I had tapered. This time...I have no choice but to go cold turkey...and it's not going to be pretty. I have 0$ to buy anything to help with the side effects...and I can be sure I'll end in the hospital before this is over. I ran out once before...it starts with a headache...then comes the non-stop vomitting and diarhea (I know...TMI...but those are the facts). Tomorrow (Mar 25) is day one!
I'm just looking for support...and to hear from pple who may have been through this before. I find myself longing for something "stronger"...and I KNOW it's time to quit. I have been working out 5 days a week...and I've lost over 80 lbs in the last year. So...now it's time to get the drugs under control. I know I won't be working out for a while...but I'm sure my withdrawals will boost my weight loss. lmao...I know not really funny...but if I didn't laugh I'd cry. (I'm laid off...so perfect time to do this). But It's going to be HELL!!!!
I started taking T3's back in 2002 when I had a dentist who prescribed them like candy for over 3 mths...then when my teeth were all fixed...I was desperate...and I had someone tell me I can buy t1's over the counter (Im in Canada)...and it's progressed from there. I was hooked. At my worst (few yrs ago...I was taking up to 17 at a time every 4 hours)...now I'm at about 10...and I know it's killing me. I don't have any physical symptoms of the impact it's had...but I know after all these yrs...there's outta be some damage done.
So...here goes nothing. I have 7 pills left...and I plan to take them around 8pm...then I'll be on my way to withdrawal hell.
I'm very open to discussing this...and I'm also EXTREMELY versed in addiction and various drugs. I've done speed and ecstasy (never got hooked...probably more because I didn't have a regular supplier...but I have a little bro that is very badly addicted to that, pain killers and coke). I also know ALL about benzo's and have been taking clonazepam 2mg during all this change in my life. I have close relatives who are addicted to benzo's and another addicted to alcoho. I just need to start living free...and learn what it's like to just be ME again. I smoke pot (that will never change...unless I ever have children). I also smoke cigs...something else I need to quit (takes priority over all other drugs atm). My recent job loss has left me pennyless...so it forces me to do something I've been putting off for far too long.
Please feel free to ask me anything. I'm always happy to help...and to share my experiences.
I will try to keep you posted & check in as often as possible...but I'm sure I'll be verrry sick for the next several days.
Thanks in advance for any and all support. This is something I have kept hidden from Everyone in my life...except my ex...and I no longer have him to confide in completely.
Thanks for reading this little novel,
NewStart125 =)
*Posting this into my profile too.