CHRONIC PAIN AND PANIC ATTACKS ANXIETY

Does anyone have any ideas ,i just moved from oregon to new mexico, and i cant find a new doctor, i,m on methadone for pain!!only not heroin ect,it was prescribed after very long failed attempts on other meds,ultram,percocet,,vioxx,(which put me in hospital w/heart murmurs and beats messed up*thanks phamacrudical companies)tons of non narcotic and oxycontin which i hated 1 day i knew that stuff was bad news i went back to dr asnd he was lie tired of seeinbg me i guess ,so we tried methadone pills 10mg 3x day and it really worked on my spine pain!! i was thrilled and i dint have any bad side effects likei did w/ others which suprised me,i heard this med was just for junkies where i come from?? but here its that way the doctors arent listening to me and know the hell i went through physuically and menbtaly just to find a med that worked, not my fault its a odd drug?? now i,m left medicationless and black listed, the doctor wrote on my record high dependance on methadone,??? i never had anytrouble w/ my meds ever,never took more than i should or told to,always reported anyt hing odd,?? now this mean old dr has screwed up my life in a sense causing me alot trouble and pain is outta control i spent xmas in the bed for my back was so bad and spasms that burned and my l leg n foot where cold,anyone have ideas about this mess up??? mri shows alot odd stuff and found a cyst also?? and noones gone over my mri,s w/ me and anything very non professional?? help please????i,m gonna report him to the rx board,he really was mean and 1st thing he was all uptight about was the medication list?? and he didnt read my film xrays i brought w/ me also??? and i had anothe rdr he was rude to saying ah a cyst could be anything and pains a terrible thing,you nee to find somebody to help you??? this was aosteo dr???????? any one please??????i literally feel like im lossing it?? and the stress is overwheling,i feel i need to talk to a lawyer for 1st time in my life this is cruel and punishing to someone they dont know, my old dr,s are dumbfounded why i,m getting this treatmenbt?? never any illegal or troubles w/ meds ect?? and no abuse??? anyone know?? i heard new terms as called opophobia as dr,s are scared to give these meds out for ,if someone got treasonable records and did what they where told todo by last rx what the heck?????? if it makes your life wotrk better like being able to function better and get some relief i just dont under stand?? anyone know what i should do anbout this dr situation he put me in i feel so abused by him and helpless i was treated like a criminal street dope addict??? i was never ever treated like this from any dr and i seen too many in my opinions?? please any feedback??