I've had two extremely disturbing dreams the past couple of nights.
Involving my father.
This is very hard for me to talk about, for it's so vivid & realistic that I feel as though it has actually happened to me & I am quite traumatized.
Basically, the dream is, I am sleeping & my father somehow is in my room, he is always looking out the window & it's raining & pitch black outside. I wake up & he's standing right there yelling at me, talking to me about horrible sexual activities...& telling me what he wants me to do & all this disturbing caca about sex.
Another scary thing about this dream is I seem to swing in & out of being awake & asleep, almost like I'm dosed up on something & I can never tell if I'm dreaming this or if I'm actually awake. Which is what makes this so horrific. I honestly feel like I have been rapped & assaulted & I'm very scared.
I've cried over this because I can't actually decipher if it's a dream or not.
I don't know what to do!!! Please help!!!