you have got to relax and let things happen.. everything happens for a reason.

Whats wrong exactly? Yeah that guilt is hard but if you were working you'd feel miserable, just gotta contribute what you can when you can and if you not well enough to work then so be it.

Well I don't know how to take it slow. Is it bad if I don't talk to my bf every day?

So I read all of your posts and you sound like a normal girl that's just not sure how to handle guys or relationships. I wouldn't worry too much if a guy doesn't call you everyday, he may not feel as though the relationship is as serious as you think it is. If it is causing you to obsess, I know this is going to sound ridiculous but you need to not be with this person. I feel as though an obsession is created when the other person is not responding to you as you desire. This is a destructive pattern that will not change. And if you find yourself with nothing to do but sit and stare at your phone, it's time to get some new hobbies. Seriously. I don't know what city you live in, but you should join a rec softball team or soccer team and meet tons of people there to distract you and give you some balance in your life. Hope this helps!

Yeah, just do as you feel, sometimes people don't ever have perfect relationships but you only live once so do as you feel, don't try and force a relationship if its not working out. Finding someone who just takes you as you are is hard but can be done then you generally don't worry so much, just like you wouldn't worry that you don't call your friends everyday etc - if that makes sense.

Courtie
From this and other posts it's starting to sound a bit like you're a good girl with a few issues that really needs more going on in her life. You seem to obsess really easy. You need distractions. Maybe read a bit more or get into art pursue a hobby or become more active in your community. Have something around to help you take your mind off of things. I think it will really help you manage your feelings if you're not waiting by the phone for this guy to call.

If you do feel like you're having trouble managing your feelings. If others tell you your reactions seem out of place for the situation or if you find that you're having difficulty controling your behavior then absolutely don't hesitate to return to hospitalized care. Refusing care when it's needed will only do you more harm. The society that pays to make hospital care available to you needs you to be a functioning and productive member of our culture. If you feel guilty about the cost of your care go to great efforts when you are well to repay the tax payers. Donate your time and works to charities or public services to pay them back.

Hang in there!

thanks guys, it is obsession unfortunately and yes I do need to get a life. I will hang in there, relax and just let things happen.