I'm 18 and have a 3 and a half month old daughter and i was recently diagnosed with depression from my and i've been on these tablets (anitryptalin) and i was fine on them for a few days and then all of a sudden i started to lose my temper with my daughter like i did before i was diagnosed..
i went back to my and he's changed my tablets and told me to stop taking my previous tablets to get them out my system before i take my new ones, and since not having the tablets i've gone back to my old self at getting angry and taking my stress out on my daughter (i dont hit her or nothing i jus walk away and go in a different room to calm down) which i know isnt right and i dont mean to but sometimes her crying really gets to me when shes been fed shes just had a sleep and it seems shes crying for no reason and i seem to be crying all the time and i get really angry.. and i dont know what to do, i really want to be a better mum to my daughter and get over my depression and be a better mum..
So, you're a parent--welcome to one of the hardest jobs in the world. I know kids can seem especially trying when crying is their only method of communication, you often wonder how the heck you're supposed to know what they want. It gets better, even before they learn to talk; you'll learn to get better at picking up on what she needs.
In the meantime, if you're pursuing things with your doc, then you're on a good course to being the better mom you want to be; don't lose sight of that.
I know it's hard waiting on one med to get out of your system so you can start a new one. Some meds can take time to build up to full effectiveness, too, so you may have to just be patient on that score once you do start the new one. Probably not what you wanted to hear, I'm sure.
I will say this though, as a parent and a grandparent. You recognize that there's a problem, you're seeing a doctor for it, and when you get that angry you take it away from your daughter and into another room. That IS being a good mom.
Be patient with the meds, and keep your doc up to date on how everything is going. I'd suggest maybe looking into therapy as well, meds can't do it alone.