I have recently gone down hill, well i have been going down hill for a very long time, i started cutting myself and not trusting my boyfriend
our relationship is already very stressful as he lives 175 miles away from me but trust is the main part of it all.
i have been messed around alot in the past, and decided i didnt want to be alive anymore, becuase i get so stressed out cant seem to make anyone happy and really cant seem to get out of this hole im stuck in.

i got councelling but then stopped going because i didnt want to talk to anybody about it cause i feel like it doesnt help.
i would constantly have panic attacks and then struggle massively with my breathing and one night passed out.
i went to the doctors as my auntie was also concerned, she said she thought i was bi polar.

then when i went to the doctors she said it might be my pill so take the 3 packets in a row. so it was constant then have a break. so i did that, then after the first 2 packets i started my period whilst i was still on the pill, and it was really heavy after a week it stopped. but now my emotions are allover the place. i cant seem to trust my boyfriend and last night i almost lost him, he turned his phone off for 3 hours so he didnt have to speak to me.
i just dont want to lose him. but i need to find something to do to stop me getting worried when he goes out.
i am only 16 and would like to try and get it solved and sorted now rather than wait till it gets anymore:/

what can i do to help me?
please help i will take anything on board i am so desperate to get rid of this feeling.
thank you x