Hello amma13 and welcome to ehealth: I believe the term that I would use about your life right now is "hell"...Your parents have broken your heart...You were a family and now it will be no more...I will agree that this is depressing, but in the long run it is better than what I went through growing up...I lived in the hell of not knowing if my Father would beat the heck out of my Mother and kill us all...This happens when you have an alcoholic Father...Unfortunately, they never divorced...So I lived in that land of "let's pretend"...This happens when you act like you have a nice family when he is sober and go to sleep with a butcher knife under your pillow when he is drunk....

Now I am not trying to tell you my sad tale of woes, but believe me honey, it could be worse...Where I lived was really pretty bad...Look at it this way...Your folks are parting...They are parting because they need to...Maybe for years they stayed together to make you happy...They were unhappy, but they wanted you to be happy....This they did for you....Saying this, it is your turn to stand up to the plate...You now are near 18...Time for you to start standing on your feet and make your own life...Sure they will help you, but give them a break...Let them be happy too....

Now about that book you are going to write...We here at the Forum offer you the paper....It is free....Just come on and jot down your fury with life whenever you want to...People here will help guide you and believe me it helps...Kind of relieves the pressure of life...I kind of look forward to it...

If it helps you do this, then do it...I, too, like to write...I'll bet you guessed it right away...The hurt that you feel will take time to go away, but it will go....This is the wonderful part of life....We age and forget....Bad memories fade and good memories take over...So goes life....

All my love to you...
Caroline

Hey there,

During my teenage years I suffered from depression as well. Teenagehood is a tough stage in life, but it does pass. As will the divorce, which I'm sure is incredibly painful. I know how you feel when you say you can't control your emotions. I cried every single day and felt so horribly lost and alone. I also hid it from my friends, they had no idea I was depressed, I could hide it very well and then when I was alone I would collapse and breakdown. No one knew what I was going through, I didn't talk to anyone about it which made me feel more lonely.

Being depressed is the most miserable feeling ever, feeling like there is no point, feeling high anxiety, feeling hopeless..all of it is awful. It got to a point where I talked to my doctor about it, she is someone I trust. I was referred to psychologist and diagnosed and perscribed meds, which did in fact help. If you don't feel comfortable talking to someone, at least write your feelings down. It really helps. I'm now 21 and no longer on meds or depressed. My time since high school has been amazing. Just remember you are never alone, and all this will pass. Being a teenager is tough but it gets so much better! Try to think of that when times are tough and just know that you will get through it.

elle

thank you all for the support. i'm starting to feel abit better as the days go by. i realized that i just have to take everything a day at a time and try my best to look on the bright side. everything you both said was veryy helpful and i totally agree with. for a few months ive felt so depressed and had so many breakdowns. but lately i've felt like theres hope. i still cry alot but i feel like things are slowlyy getting better. only time will tell.