I've been in an off and on relationship for over 5 years. I just realized that I am in an abusive relationship and to make it worse I was the "abuser." I wasn't physically abusive but I was emotionally. I never thought that I would be on this end of a relationship. Now, I am at great risk of losing the person I care about because I act the way I do. I am scared to lose him and I would love any advice to help me get through this struggle. I don't want to hurt him anymore and I care about him too much to put him through this. He deserves better than this. I know that I want to be with him for the rest of my life but I feel like I don't know how to love him. If any one could give me some input I would really appreciate it. I know it's going to be hard but I'm willing to go through with this.