|It bothers me that you won't look at your own actions instead you simply point the finger at him. Relationships are a two way street. He has told you his position and feelings. Why is it so hard for you to understand? Maybe you have your own issues to deal with. You do seem awfully clingy to me. If you had more self worth his actions wouldn't effect you like this.
It is time you think about it. If it is that horrible, why would you want to pursue him the way you are? Hmmm, seems fishy to me.