Hey i am in my 20's. I had Bulimia since i was 16...and it had been such a difficult struggle for me. Recently i went to a program that treats you from your Eating DIsorders by force feeding you 3 normal meals and 2 snacks a day and you pretty much had to spend the whole day there. ANd i gained over 20lbs in the program. I was forced to leave the program pre-muturely because i was late for a number of times. RIght now sitting at a weight 20lbs heavier...i am just so stressed out and desperate, I am restricting again and overexercising...wanting to lose that weight. I am so afraid that i've messed up my metabolism so much. The weight i've gained never went away, and i even started to gain weight when i started over-exercising and restricted, can someone tell me what is my body doing? I even consider now of developing anorexia and stop eating completely...just so i dont stay at this weight...
I don't know what to do...i feel desperate...i feel that i am getting worse....
can someone help me?