Hello, Gloria, and welcome to this forum. I hope you get some help as you need it and that you get better as soon as possible.

The first step towards a healthy life is recognizing that you do have a problem and what is that problem (or problems). As you know that, it's easier to take little steps and get better.



Do not deny that you need help. Though it's normal to go through a denial process, you can overcome it. You will probably go back to it a lot, but you'll get stronger everytime you overcome it once again, ok? You must believe that you can do it or, at least, that it is worth it.



So, you must go to a doctor, some specialist. You need to talk, so don't think that going to a professional will be all about food, quatities and so on - that's a wrong thought, in fact. Talking to someone that will listen to you, that wants to help you and that can, in fact, help you is really good, belive me. I've gone through it!

So, why don't you give it a shot and let us know how you are doing? Besides, there are a lot of thing you can do, as getting a hobby, trying not to binge-purge (this is a hard task, I know, but I mean that you can control it and stop doing it! BELIEVE!)....

Feel free to PM me at anytime!

Cheers *

It is the voice of bulimia that is making you think that you are ok and dont need help and are just being pathetic and making a big deal out fo nothing. It is trying to take you over and get more and more control over you that is why even though you know deep down that you have bulimia and you need help there is that nagging feeling that you don;t need help and you should not do anything about it. That feeling is bullimia. It's inside your head and it is lying to you to try to get more and more control over you and make you more and more ill. You MUST go to a doctor or nuse or counsellor and tell them that you think you have an eating disorder. Because if you don;t it may get worse and worse and it kills people. Don't listen to the thing that is telling you not to take action, it is a lie. It is a trick to keep you trapped in this very dangerous life style. I know how hard it is to resist the voice but you must. Getting professional help is not being weak it will prove what an intelligent and incredibly strong person you are for fighting against something that is in a way like a drug. When I was diagnosed with anorexia I was not able to see a life without an eating disorder and without hating my body and without keping such rigid control and without seeing food as the enemy to be avoided and without obsessing about food and control over it. But now I can, I have recovered and life is so so much better. It is not as hard to recover as I thought it would be. But professional help is so important. You will recover, believe that and stay strong xxxxxxx lots of love from lucy