I am young, only 14. But I've been through some pretty painful stuff. So about a year ago, I found this guy. He was my best friend. And we dated, and i really loved him. Maybe not "in love" with him, but I loved him just as any friend. Maybe more. But he left. Just walked away from us. Not just me, every friend he had here in our town. It killed me. Since then I've barley talked to him at all except when he calls me late at night, maybe once every three months, needing someone to lend an ear. Then he is gone once again. No sorry's or goodbyes. He's using me and I don't mind. Anyway he's moved on and is "in love" with this girl. I've dated other guys, but the pain from being dumped out of his life is too much. I can't let go of him. Me and him, we both went through a stage of depression. He never got help, I did. I'm terrifed if I turn away for good, and never talk to him on those rare nights when he "just needs a friend" he'll kill himself. But these continuous painful reminders of what could have been send me into another depression. I feel like its my happiness, or his life. And I'm willing to be sad if it keeps him ok. How can I learn to move on, and how can I tell him that I'm just starting to heal and that I cant get broken again? Any feedback is appreciated.