Well am sure you dont need me to tell you that you are playing with fire here!....the best thing you can do all around is leave him and cut all ties...i know this sounds harsh because as you say you love him but do you think he loves you? or was you just his "bit on the side" again harsh but sweetie most married men who have affairs never have no intention of leaving there wives or family's the woman who fall for there charms are just things to them that they can use and control at there own disposal...you are better than that go out find a single guy who you can share better memories with and a future...good luck..jenny

I just broke up with my lover after 18 wonderful yet torturous months AND I told his wife. I always told my husband the details of my affair so he could make up his own mind but my lover just lied and lied some more. I became ill with a stomach ulcer and spent hours crying. We met after my best friend was killed and I was vulnerable. His wife, apparently neglected him. I even tried to help repair both our marriages but in the end I couldn't stand to watch him live a life without me waking up beside me as he promised. The thing is, his promise was to wait until I had either inherited enough money to support him or make my career wide enough to cater for him. I realised he didn't truly love ME he loved the idea of a better life, even if in his own way, he did love me with all his heart he kept me on a string and his wife in the dark. My husband is now coping with my sorrow, helping me in my illness and even in just a few days I feel my life returning to normal. My friends are thrilled for me and I'm going to slowly start smiling again until it's truly real. Who knows? maybe we'll meet again and fall in love again, but I know that true love can only really blossom when you are free to enjoy each other and there are no dark clouds looming in the background in the form of deceipt and lies to others. Take pride in who you are. Celebrate the best parts of yourself with people who can't hurt you and stay strong. The only person who truly matters is yourself and upholding your beliefs even if you wandered from the path. None of us are perfect. We make mistakes and get better. LIVE, LOVE, LAUGH for yourself but not at the expense of others. I learnt the hard way and it hurt so many. Forgive yourself and be wary of guys who wont commit to you 110% from the very start.