Hi, I broke up with my girlfriend after 4 years 3 months ago. The way we broke up is that I found on her facebook messages her telling another guy that she doesn't love me anymore and that she has changed.
We were 14 when we started going out and I'm 18 now. It hurts like hell. We were together all the time, she was my bestfriend and around school we had even picked up nickname.
Now, over the past 3 months I have done everything everyone suggests to move on apart from one thing contacting her. The longest I've lasted is 2 weeks before texting her to ask if she was okay or the occasional ring to see if she answers, guess what? She doesn't. I've moved away from where we use to hang out, met new people, gone to music festivals, kissed new girls and dated others.
I always find myself crawling back to wanting her back? I've just started my first year at university and I can't seem to take her off my mind even though the last time I saw her was 3 months ago. Today I texted her "I still love you. I've tried my best not to. I'm sorry I haven't managed it like you have". Haven't had a reply yet.
HELP? She was my first love, my only love. It feels like she has died.