I`m sorry, but if he`d ever felt anything even remotely resembling love for you (real love - unconditionalness)he wouldn`t be taking advantage of you so terribly now. You`re in love with an idea that is him, but in reality is someone that you`re yet to discover. See my website for the nature of relationship a person like yourself truly deserves. You have to stop in your track with him, and I am sincerely aware that this may be the hardest single thing anyone shall ever ask of you, (or anyone for that matter), but it will get easier, and you will meet that guy. If this helps we can talk whenever - (It mentions DJing but I live in the UK!!)