i'm an obsessive type of person and have been obsessing over various diseases for as long as i can remember. i'll go through a brief history of it all: when i was young, i thought i magically contracted aids from someone's blood that touched my skin, thought i had diabetes for the longest time because i magically started going to the bathroom 20 times a day, thought i had cancer at one point, a few weeks ago i thought i had breast cancer (no symptoms whatsoever), and now: i have a slight headache in the back of my ear and my ear feels bit like there's warm water flowing in it. for the past few months my hearing has been "zooming" in and out. ( my mom says that that is due to my wisdom teeth growing in.. she had the same thing apparently) and let me just say.. the whole slight headache and clogged feeling in my ear ONLY occured when i started worrying about a brain tumor. could i have one? or am i just a hypochondriac or have OCD? i've been focusing so much on my head for the past few days.. it seems like the headache magically appeared there. could it maybe be sinuses? this morning i woke up with a runny nose and sore throat... i don't have it anymore, though. i do have a post nasal drip-type thing going on, though.
i'm just so confused and i feel so ridiculous. my mother thinks i'm crazy. she says i definitely do not have a tumor. i've been so tired lately, though, too. i think it's from an iron and vitamin deficiency though.
can someone just tell me i'm okay or something. i'm tired of worrying. i'm not going to a doctor either because the machines they use to check for tumors/cancer leak radiation and aren't healthy. so i just don't even know what to do.