So My boyfriend and I have been dating for almost 2 years. I love him with all my heart, and he is my best friend. He is(in my eyes), handsome, hilarious, loving, sweet, romantic, and he means the world to me. Except while cleaning his room with him when we first started dating, i found a few magazines under his bed. He told me that his dad gave him those and that honestly, he hadn't touched them in over a year. And i believed him, after all, they were dusty. And I trust him.
Then, a few months later, on his computer (practically brand new), I am getting ready to log into facebook while he's in the shower, and i find an open tab. Its a site that has funny posts, weird posts, and mostly, porn, porn links, and porn of all types. I confronted him about it, calmly as he explained to me that he looks at porn. He said he started looking at porn at an early age, and gave me reasons, told me sad stories, and kind of tried to prove his sob story and what got him into porn. We got into a mini argument, but overcame it the next day when we deleted all the porn off of his computer and he pinky promised to me that he wasnt going to get into that stuff ever again. and that I was good enough for him, and better, etc, etc, etc. I took it well, believed him, and went on with my life.
My boyfriend is in a creative writing class, and i was waiting for him to get off work, so i opened up his laptop. The opened document was a very sweet, amazing, well written story about how we first met. I was blown away, and wanted to do something amazing for him in return. So I started writing him a story mimicking how we met, except in my point of view. I got to a writers block where i needed to describe more features about him. So I went to his pictures to find a picture of him for inspiration to end my writers block. And then i found porn. So much of it. files, upon files. boobs, websites to rate boobs, long videos of sexual content, the whole deal. I broke down in tears because it sucks, He promised me. Long story short, we got in a fight about the porn once again, and I suggested that he could be "addicted". But he justified it with " Im just as horny as every other male in america", and how he isnt the only one, and people are worse than him, and how, if he is so bad, then i should just dump him. Well we got over that bump after another promise, and another argument.
and last night. I borrowed his laptop to write my paper for history, and in recent history were sites made for porn, more videos that were hours long,pictures, websites, favorites. all in just a matter of a few weeks. I havent done anything about this time yet, He doesnt know that i know, and i still have his laptop as we speak, and i deleted all the porn off of it already. But what should I do? Im not goign to break up with him, i know that. But is it common, natural? Should I blow it off and let him be himself. Or is it an actual issue/problem? Or should i risk yet another fight over the same issue. Because if it happens again, it will just break my heart once more. What should I do?
Saving 