Brief background for those who have not read my other posts.
October last year I was admitted to the phych unit of the hospital twice for being suicidal and cutting.
Since then I have been seeing a psychologist who has told me that I have prominant symptoms of both Borderline Personality Disorder and Narcisstic Personality Disorder.
A couple weeks ago my Psychologist called me in to say that her mentor believes I may bipolar and they have referred me to a psychiatrist for further evaluation.
I just dont see it as possible.
I have never in my life had a manic or hyper-manic episode. I have spoken with my wife who also says she does not believe I have.
How can it be bipolar??
My pychologist believes that the Narcisstic traits may be consistant with the manic phase and the bordeline traits may be consistant with the depressive phase.
Has anyone ever heard of this??
I run down about how I feel may help.
I hate myself!!!!
Simple as that really. I have done nothing good with my life. I have made no success of anything. I constantly make mistakes and constantly hurt people. I day dream to escape myself. The problem is that I am daydreaming all the time....hours and hours a day. I dream of success and wealth and happiness....all the things I can not acheive in my own life.....simply because I am not good enough in real life.
I feel like a loser and a failure because I AM a loser and a failure.
How do you cure that????????? There is no cure for failure?????????
PLEASE HELP!!!!!!
I need to know what is wrong with me!!