September last year I fell into a major depression.
Since then I have been seeing a psychologist who initially had been treating me for a personality disorder. I have enough symptoms to be diagnosed with Bordeline Personality and Narcissistic Personality Disorders. Last week I was called in by my Psychologist who advised that she had reviewed my file with her mentor and they believe I may be suffering Bipolar. They believe that I am swinging between Bordeline and Narcissistic Personalities. Narcisstic being the Manic phase and Bordeline being the depressive phase.
I myself have been told that I have Borderline Personality Dissorder, among other things...I have been in and out of therapy since I was 13(10 yrs) and have never been able to stick with it to see any results...at this point I feel very hopeless...I have only recently been told of the possibility of BPD, not officially diagnosed, and currently not seeking treatment...let me know how it works for you
Last october I was admitted into hospital as I was suicidal. I was released after a week only to be chased down by police and escorted back as I was again suicidal.
I am pretty much destroying my life.
I have made so many bad decision and could never understand why. until my psychologist told me that it was impossible for me to be successful with what was going on in my head. Not to say that I cant be successful with the right treatment.
Who knows what will happen.
I am giving treatment a chance but to be honest if it looks like it is going nowhere....and it is starting to feel that way....then i fear I will just give up on everything....including life.
listen it does get better you need to focus on being in charge of this then to have it be in charge of you Until you make a commitment on being in charge it will destroy you You are the one charge you are the one living it it do not think of it as a bad thing think of it as part of the life you was given and make the best of it I am bipolar i am not ashamed there are steps to take to control it medication is only a little bit You need to change your whole life and figure out what to do and not do I know i can not go into a bar alone so i dont I know i should not have more then 2 drinks so i dont I know i can not have a bunch of people over so i dont We have triggers Do not end your life because you are bi polar make your live have meaning Volunteer go to college be a speaking for bi polar tell people there is hope stop looking as a bad thing We are blessed 85% of the people on forbes 500 club have some kind of mental illness Some of the most talented people that have ever lived were crazy facts and stats that is the glory of it all
I have suffered with bpd all my life,also major deppression and a "mood disorder" I have been told I'm bipolar, bipolar2, not bipolar, have ptsd, I do know my life has been very difficult. Misdiagnoses is common, many med trials and errors common, hospital common. I have lost 2 marriages, and my children because of it. Try not to label yourself with any of this. You are a child of God and someday there will be peace from all this even if we don't ever find it here. Good luck
I have suffored with BPD for 15 yrs the only way to help yourself is to always think positive read and watch lots of comody set an alarm clock for every other morning and my baby is my dog i have to get up to feed him! life seems hard but take each part of your day into sections and always try to look your best... I find getting up early makes me feel more confident about having a good day. My main point is to not dwell on GP answers or comments the condition started in your mind so YOU have to think the positive energys to recharge that amazing and creative brain of YOURS!!! We have an advantage with our over active minds i even make myself laugh...Chin up people and just enjoy the ride x
i have a friend who swings in between Bordeline and Narcissistic Personalities, it can be hard to watch at times. But don't worry
but you deserve a big pat on the back for facing your problems front on!
all i can really say by watching her, is learn to love yourself all the good and the bad, it is what makes you who you are. we all have our quirks its nothing to be ashamed
my personal spin on things is positive with my bipolar and psychotic depression. Is the fact when i go through my psychotic depression i get to see what others can only imagine! the things people can only ever see in movies however i am still able to tell i am in reality when my visual disturbances happen.
but i wish the best of luck for you
and im sure if you keep on tract you will get it sorted
also if a psychologist says its impossible? ever thought of considering a different view of your mental state? or the therapy others may be able to offer that this person can't?