well i don't know where to start but i'm kind of embarrased to talk about this but i need to know whats going on in my body. for couple of yrs now i been doing drugs meth. when i first started doing this drug i had no problam with sex odors. but i dont know what happend i ended up getting depressed i stoped going out and i ended up getting a habit of masterbating all day while getting high on the drug. what i noticed after couple months being like this my nervs and odor started changing after masterbating for a lil while i would smell like a really bad penis smell. well like i have a drug problam the excessive masterbation hasnt stoped its now been 4 yrs and my body and brain are damaged from doing drugs and masterbating and being depressed. Now i suffer from alot of weird stuff. body odor when i do meth now and i think about sex ,right away my body goes into tight mode ,hard to explain but 1 moment body is relax and now it just wants to have sex and at the same time i could start smelling the odor, and i just start thinking more of sex more more until i get to the point i have to masterbate . i have not gone once not masterbating when i'm on meth.
these odors are only when i do meth. i gone clean from meth for couple months when i was clean i remember there was no odors no sexuall craving. but i relaps and i recall that after doing meth everything was ok for the first hour or 2 it seemed like the sex craving disappeared,but i was wrong it slowly creeped back into my head and i was back to my old games i got a hotel room and masterbated all day ya thats how messed up i am whats wrong with me?
i am also bipolar
about the odor what i think is that whenever i do meth it triggers something in my body to release odor. i believe this cuase i made it a habit for my body to over masterbate while on meth that i got it used to it. now as soon meth is in my body ,my body does what it only know what to do when on meth. is it the brain? nerves system?
