[don't read this if you don't want to hear personal information and maybe gross info. I'm sorry.]
Okay. So, I'm just a teenager and I'm in high school.
I've been having some vaginal issues for a few years now, but I've been afraid to do anything about it or tell anyone.
I have been having some definately abnormal discharge that kind of smells bad and occurs almost every day:(
I haven't had my period yet, and I am a virgin.
My vaginal area is usually kind of itchy and sometimes painful.
I guess the only person I've told is my mom, and she just thought I had a yeast infection.
I tried this like, "vaginal insert egg" thing for yeast infections and it didn't seem to do anything.
It's just always been like this, and I've just pretty much ignored it.

so, it seemed to have been getting worse lately, and I read in a magazine that you should look at your vagina in a mirror to see if it was normal or something.
so, as disgusted as I was, I thought that maybe I should.
it seemed to be very red,
and the little "flap" things were like discolored and purplish brown?
I didnt know what to look for, but when I did I saw a little black circle near my vagina. I don't know what it is and I don't know what to do. I know it's not normal. It's not like a freckle or something, it's bigger then that.
I know I am going to have to see a gynecologist sometime but I am just so scared.
I don't want to.
I've heard, "it's an easy thing, it goes fast, it's just a standard exam." but this isn't standard. it won't be fast.
it will be so awkward and hideous and embarassing.
what should I do?
if I do have to go to a gynecologist, should I "shave"?
please, help me.
I don't even really know what I'm asking for.
Just help, I guess.
and advice.
maybe some reassurance it will be okay sometime?

thank you.
I'm really sorry if I was disgusting.