I looked back at the posts I had on here from a year ago. Weird. Theyre no longer relevant. My wife finally got her medication rigth about a year ago. It has been steady for the last year if not boring. When she is on her meds she is no fun at all. She is just,I dont know,like everyone else. We NEVER had sex.Probably 12 times in the last year. So much has happened between us. We almost lost our house because she wasnt paying the mortgage. She got a $1200 title loan and trust me,thats a VERY big deal. Waters been turned off. Cable turned off. Shes smacked me in the face. Just a few examples,or complaints I guess. Sorry. Anyway,recently she decided she was going to just stop taking her meds and we were going to have a baby. Ummm...ok? She is very impulsive and after she gets a thought in her head she obsesses about it until it gets done. Im really scared that she has stopped taking her medication because she was always hyper sexual off her meds. Im scared she will cheat. Also,and this is something that I found out in the last year by finding the bottle of valtrex hidden in her trunk,she has herpes. She also has a heart condition called tachacardia where her heart beats about 3 times as fast as a normal person. Anyway,over the last year Ive started to feel,I dont know, numb. Its a really scary feeling. And Im worried that Im not gonna make the right decisions relating to everything going on. I dont even know what Im asking for. And with my experience on this website,people are generally not very willing to offer support. Theyre usually looking for it. Which is exactly what Im doing. I feel like being selfish. I dont feel like dealing with her issues all the time anymore. Her issues have consumed my life,her life, my kids life for years now. I feel like her fire burns so strong that it has swallowed up everyone elses. I need advice. And I hope there is a good person out there who can give it to me.