I was wondering if anyone had a similar experience, or if anyone is knowledgeable enough to push me in the right direction.
My situation is a bit complex, so bear with me please!
I'm currently in the military and have been diagnosed with both PTSD and Bipolar II, but I'm nor convinced with the Bipolar 2 diagnosis and feel it might be a misdiagnosis.
From teenhood onwards, I was always an energetic person. I would have periods of high energy, and periods of average energy? By periods of high energy, I mean I always had to do things: I did sports, travel, and other activities. But sometimes I would also go out and party, drink, or pick up women. While these behaviors were fairly intense, friends, family and coworkers never described them as excessive, in fact, none of them ever commented on it being out of the ordinary. In 2001 and 2002 I took the MMPI-2 exam for work: I passed both times without difficulty, and I was being honest...I did not try to deceive or "beat" the test.
Around 2003, I had an incident which led me to PTSD. For about a month or two afterwards, my drinking increased dramatically and I felt depressed, blaming myself for the incident and the such. I would avoid contact with friends and family. Work never suffered, and no one suspected a thing. Eventually, I realized that things were going downhill so I cut back on the drinking, moved into a new home, and started seeing friends and family again. Things got a lot better, and for the most part things went back as they had been.
However, once in a while when I wasn't busy doing something, I would think about the incident and it would bother me. Also, movies with certain cues would make me cry. For those two reasons I decided to go see the doctors, fine tune things a little. I figured I'd go talk to a shrink for a while and then everything would be alright.
Within a month, they had diagnosed me with Bipolar and PTSD. They put me on around 300mg of Seroquel, which made me drowsy and sleepy, and gave me extremely vivid dreams.
During this period, I started doubting the Bipolar diagnosis. I have 2 family members diagnosed with Bipolar, and I don't recognize myself in them at all. I've asked friends, family, and coworkers candidly if they thought I was bipolar, and all of them were surprised because they didn't see any of this in me. Also, I've been very successful in life, with no work impairment whatsoever: university degree with high grades, very high ratings at an extremely stressful job, good salary, NEVER a day off work.
Taking the Seroquel had made me drowsy and tired, I tended to sleep less and people around me noticed. When my dose finally made it to 300mg, I got drowsy and it became hard to concentrate. I went to see the doctors: they said I was in a deep depression, but nevertheless changed Seroquel for Lamotrigine. Within a week i was back to normal and all the tiredness and drowsiness was gone. I suspect the Seroquel made me tired and drowsy, not the supposed depression.
I've been on Lamictal for several months now, and I'm still unconvinced of my Bipolar diagnosis. The symptoms they refer to as hypomania have been present since I was a teen, but have never caused any problems and I've never had difficulty doing a high stress difficult job. I also passed the MMPI-2 with flying colors while having those same supposed symptoms.
I went to the doctors because I cried during some movies and because once in a while I thought of a disturbing event. I came out of it with PTSD and Bipolar diagnosis.
I'm convinced I have PTSD, but not sure about Bipolar. Has anyone here had issues with misdiagnosis? Is it possible to honestly succeed the MMPI-2 while being Bipolar? Could Seroquel sideffects be mistaken for depression?
Have you ever had a lot of sexual partners, have you ever spent money when you should not of? These are additional problems people with Bipolar have.
Sometimes watching tv makes me cry if I see someone else who is upset and it affects me. I feel stupid when that happens, I was watching the Olympics and seen some ladies that we upset about not winning, and they where so upset that it made me sad for them, then the next thing I know I was crying.
i hAVE BEEN DIAGNOSED WITH BOTH PTSD AND BI POLAR AND I AM VERY CONFUSED. I HAD A TRAUMATIC LIFE SO I CAN SEE WHERE THE PTSD CAN COME FROM BUT MOST RECENTLY I HAVE BEEN DIAGNOSED WITH BIPOLAR I SERIOUSLY DOUBT I HAVE EITHER I READ THE DEFINITION OF BOTH OF THEM AND I DONT REALLY THINK I HAVE EITHER. ALTHOUGH I HAVE MAJOR ANGER OUT BURSTS TO THE POINT OF BLACKING OUT AND SLEEP ISSUES COULD THERE POSSIBLY BE ANYTHING ELSE I MIGHT HAVE?????? IVE HAD A TON OF SEXUAL PARTNERS BUT IM NOT OUT OF HAND WITH SPENDING HABITS AND I DONT EXHIBIT SEVERE DEPRESSION SIGNS EITHER WHATS GOING ON WITH ME CAN ANYONE HELP ME??????
But has it been a problem? No. I tend to sleep around if I'm single, but never when I'm committed. Money, once in a while I've bought stuff I shouldn't have, but I've never been in debt or in financial difficulty.
I guess where I have issues with the diagnostic is the degree of impairment. Seems to me that individuals with BP have a fair degree of impairment, and I don't see that aspect of it in myself. Like I said, I work at a stressful and demanding job, but I've had consistently good performance, I have great evaluations and I do good work. I would have expected that BP would cause me to be unable to do my job adequately, maybe I'm mistaken? Can impairment because of BP be limited to only some things?
Thanks for the quick response NightStar. But you should never feel stupid for crying at someone else's distress...at least you have some empathy!
You can have varying degrees of illness, some people function better then others and don't need the treatment as someone else might need.
I always thought of hypo mania as somewhat productive, them people have extra energy and keep going.
I don't have hypo mania myself. I don't go through fazes any more where I am working good. I have the opposite problem, motivation problems.
Need to watch yourself with the sex and the money, be mindful and think twice before acting. I have had more sex partners then I can count, and today I have hepatitis C , so you really have to be careful.
I don't socialize very well with others, I am always afraid of saying something inappropriate. So I stay home and just talk to my sister or mother, no other contact, people just naturally avoid me. I have a few neat tricks that I show people. But it is not enough to get people to really talk to me.
I suffer multiple disorders: Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, Obsessive / Compulsive Disorder, Borderline Personality, Attention Deficit Disorder, and Bipolar I
I have had problems keeping jobs, I usually lasted 6 months then off 6 months with no work, longest job lasted 4 years. I have had 28 jobs in 36 years. Now I am on disability.
I went 10 years with no treatment at all, and just the last 3 years I have been on Geodone, my mom tells me I am a different person today with the medication.
You are right about the sex and money. I've had quite a few partners, but I've been lucky and haven't caught anything. I use protection all the time, but it's never a 100%. Sorry to hear luck wasn't on your side.
As for money, I'm using a "safe account" system which works great. I have general bank account out of which I can use debit and pay bills. I also have a "safe account", I can transfer money from the general account to the "safe account" online, but I need to go to a teller to take money out of the "safe account". Pretty much kills the risk of impulse buying. I recommend the system to anyone with loose purse strings!
I want to say something about your 28 jobs though....good on you. That you've had 28 jobs, in spite of your problems, shows that you're a hard worker and you don't give up. A lot of people would have given up a long time ago.
Well I have a small job on a message board, pay averaging 50 to 100 per month., I advice people on credit problems on a card rating site. Not too many people post credit problems on this particular board. Traffic is down for my section of the board. I am not up too much on credit cards. I use to work for a credit bureau was there for 4 years.
I make sure that I pay all of the bills with my money. I set everything up for manual bill pay online. I only have enough money to pay living expenses like cable, phone, rent, and water. After that I buy my cigarettes. My husband buys the food with his money.
I tried finding a job a year back, went to all of the temp agencies, but no one ever called me back. I am on disability, so I have to report all income directly to them. I now work at my own pace, which is not much.
I no longer have a good wardrobe to wear for a nice job working in an office.
I also have poor eyesight, I can't just pick up and read books any more. On the internet if a page has too small of writing I learned to push cntrl - or cntrl + and that enlarges the print until I can read it.
I got glasses, though they help make the letters larger, it still is not large enough for my preference to read for any long period of time.
I am particular on what jobs I want to work now, I don't want to be out in the heat, I have had problems with over heating in the past, and I break out in a rash under my arms, and I try to avoid that at all cost. I tried detasseling one year, that job didn't last long. I over heated, and kept missing the corn that I was suppose to pull. They kept pulling me back, I didn't know what I was doing, it was a terrible experience.
I want to work in an office, I want a data entry job, I like doing easy things over and over again. I am not creative, and can't just work unattended, I need someone checking my work.