Bipolar Boyfriend got me thinking

I have been in a relationship with my bipolar hunni for about 2 months now. He is the best man in the world when he is in a good mood, but when he's bad he is very bad. I feel like i want to leave him one day, and the next day i swear i will never leave him. is it possible that i have bipolar disease as well? My moods swing just as much. the problem is i don't have insurance and can't afford to see a doctor.

My boyfriend is always questioning my fidelity. all i do is work, and i have several clients pretty far apart. that means a lot of driving on my part. any little thing i say can be turned around into something negative with him.

He has also threatend the lives of myself and my family if i ever were to report his shady activities or leave him. his grandfather is one of my clients. i am afraid that the working situation would be unbearable if i ever left him.