Bipolar and Pregnant

I am in my 30's and was diagnosed with depression and panic disorder as a teenager. However a few years ago my doctor diagnosed me Bipolar, not the greatest news to hear but at least I can understand and come to terms with my mental illness. I am a mother to two beautiful daughters and I am currently pregnant. I went off my medication when I found out I was pregnant, I refuse to let my unborn child be exposed or put at risk for health defects. Everything was going fine until now, my depression is and mood is at a breaking point. It is extremely difficult to get out of this funk. All I do is cry on and off and just lay in bed. I forced myself to get up today, at least I am up. My husband is not supportive because he does not understand depression/anxiety/mood swings. God bless him though for putting up with my ups and downs but his comments are not helpful. I hear comments such as "why have you gone crazy" "you have nothing to be depressed about" "don't you know your depression is hurting the family" and the list goes on.... The only one who understands is my mother (she is bipolar) my therapist and doctor who have been treating me for years. I pray that God sees me through this because I know my medication has helped me so much and since I have been off of it during my pregnancy I see many obstacles that I have to overcome on a regular basis and its overwhelming and mentally exhausting. Yes, I will get back on my meds after my child is born. I just wanted to post what I am going through for anyone else who has or is going through the same thing as I am, and to tell you that you are not alone!